It is so hard for me sometimes to just let go of something. Especially something that I made. It could be a hand tied fly that I didn’t get the wings just right and would not think of selling. So instead of stripping it down, I put it “away”. You know…away…like in a place it will be forgotten about until a year or so later it is magically stumbled upon. That kind of away.
Its easier to do that than to discard. Discarding means it has no value, metaphorically my time and talent had no value and to throw it away is kind of like cheapening life some how, a span of my life that I can never get back. Maybe that’s why people become hoarders…but I digress.
A while back, I carved a freshwater trout series called the “Mountain Trout Slam”. It featured the German Brown trout, Brook trout and Rainbow trout. The German Brown and Rainbow trout sold immediately but the Brook trout kind of lingered.
I wasn’t quite sure what to do with it so it sat for awhile. Then one day after I finished a project for a client, I decided that I was going to do a three dimensional mount with a stream bottom scene. I wanted to keep it simple and keep the accent on the trout. However, prepping the piece, I broke the tail off of the fish. My heart sank. I know it seems ridiculous but for a moment, I felt crushed. Looking at the trash can somehow made me realize not to give up. The fish took on a life of it’s own, I couldn’t just snuff it out.
Then I decided to just glue it back together and finish the mount. It wasn’t for a client anyway. I immediately felt better working to put the project together. Truth be told, I even laughed out loud as it reminded me of the scene in A Christmas Story when the father tried to glue his shattered lamp back together…the one from fragile, Italy (fans of the movie will understand what I mean).
When all was said and done and there was a lot more done than said, the project was complete. So now it sits in the kitchen until a final resting place can be found. Tail cracked and a little scratch but somehow I find it more beautiful now than before I broke it.